Friday, July 29, 2016

Nothing to Say

Craig pointed out to me that I haven't blogged in a really long time. It's true. I haven't. i don't think I'm really interested in blogging anymore. I'm considering taking it down and maybe I'll start a new one at a later time, if the interest comes back.

That's all.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

New Year's Resolutions

I don’t believe in making New Year’s Resolutions.  If I need to change something about my life, I don’t believe hanging a new calendar is going to make it happen, or make it any easier.  I understand how its a “good time to make some changes” and blah, blah, blah, new year, new life, blah, blah, blah.  I just want to say, if you need to stop smoking,  drinking soda, cursing, or whatever, don’t wait until Jan. 2 - just do it.  The right time to be better is right now.

2013 had its up and downs.  For the most part when I look back I feel a lot of stress and unhappiness, therefore I think there were more valleys than peeks.  Celebrating the end of 2013 and welcoming 2014 was not even an option for me this year.  I just wanted it to be over, no reflecting, no clinking of glasses at midnight; I just wanted it to end! Instead, we watched the ball drop in Spanish at 9:00 and called it a night. 

I ask myself, if hanging a new calendar does not make a difference to me, then why am I so happy that 2013 is DONE? I think its because I - very unintentionally - made a New Year’s Resolution!  I vowed that 2014 was going to be GREAT.  Not just for me but for so many of my loved ones that need it to be great.  I’ve seen so many bad hands dealt over the last few years, that I can feel the urgency for some relief.  I vow that jobs will be filled, addictions will be healed, cancers will be cured, love will be discovered, hearts will be healed, the lost will be found!  I am telling you, it’s going to be a great year!  YOU will have a great year!  I know it because I am praying for YOU and the Lord does amazing things for those whom ask! 

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matthew 7:7-8
I pray that my own free-will does not interfear with God's will for my life.
I pray that for you too.
I pray that the desire of my heart match God’s desire for my life.
I pray that for you too.
I pray that my eyes are opened to the needs of others and that I find the strength to do God’s work.
I pray that for you too.
I pray that I heal from things that still bind me.
I pray for you too.
I pray that I feel God’s presence every day.
I pray that for you too.
Mostly, I pray for those who have walked away from the light and that God sends them an angel.
I pray for you too.
I pray for love to be found and marriages to be made and marriages to be made better.
I pray for you too.
I pray for strength through the trials and wisdom to discern.
I pray for you too.
I pray that evil forces are not allowed to enter into my life, at all.
I pray for you too.
I’m too tired to give anyone advice this year, but if you need someone to be there for you, in person, or in prayer, I will be there.  
It’s going to be a great year! I’m praying for you too.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013


Abraham and Sarah had to wait 25 years before the promise of their son, Isaac, was born.

Joseph had to wait 13 years from the time he was thrown in the pit by his brothers to the time he made it to the palace.

Scholars believe that it took Noah 100 years to build the ark, and they weren't on the ark for a mere 40 days and nights - with two to seven of every animal (that a lot of pooh) - for only 40 days and nights, but "the waters flooded the earth for a hundred and fifty days." - Genesis 7:28

Craig has been in California working for almost 8 months.  He has come home and worked from home several times, which was great.  It has been a grueling time being away from him.  Sure, we have skype and phones and email, but none of that really fits-the-bill.  

God showed his favor on Craig and our family by getting him a new job so quickly.  He was the first one to get a job in from the studio where he was working, that went belly-up over night, and its a great job.  Seeing doors open so fast was a positive sign.  We knew God had our backs.  The girls and I would hold-out here, sell the house, finish the semester in school and be there by the New Year.  That was OUR plan.  However, God seems to have another plan.  By Christmas we had received a total of ZERO showings.  ZERO.  It’s not the house.  It's an amazing house.  It’s in a quiet picturesque neighborhood with some of the best schools in the state.  The house is priced under what our realtor recommended and we've dropped the price several times hoping to get showings.  We've had about 5 total showings... in the 9 months it’s been on the market.

Craig and I have given God control of our lives.  We raise everything up to him and I have the most confidence that He will handle it.  God is not up there saying, "I did not see this coming! What am I am going to do with the Grasso's? Who is going to buy that house?"  He has a plan.  So we wait, and we wait, and we wait, and I clean, and I do everything I can to keep the house looking amazing, and we wait.

I know God has something in mind for us.  I know he working his magic to put together all the puzzle pieces.  However, when I try to explain to other people they don't get it.  I've taken a lot of flack from people about how I should just GO, pack it up, put the house up for rent and, go.  They say we can figure it out, rent an inexpensive apartment (they don't exist in LA), live on credit cards... I've received a list of well intended advice that may work for them, but it would only make our situation worse, and then where would we be?

I want to be with my husband.  He's my best friend, wonderful father to my children and my greatest confidant.  I miss him so much my heart hurts!  I want to take care of him, cook for him and honor him in all the ways a wife should.  I hate that he is suffering from missing us too.  His job is going great, but he’s had to deal with some giant mountains, mountains he does not want to deal with alone; some that he would not have to deal with if we were there. BUT, I will not go against what God has told me/us to do, which is WAIT.

I feel him saying through scripture, praise, prayer and sermons, "Wait on me and you will understand.  Wait and you will see."  Truth is, I may never actually SEE what he's doing, but I know that it will be for his glory because I've asked him to make everything for his glory.  Our lives are in his hands and I keep trusting, praying, fasting and holding on to his promises:

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

"But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint." - Isaiah 40:31

"For since the beginning of the world
Men have not heard nor perceived by the ear,
Nor has the eye seen any God besides You,
Who acts for the one who waits for Him." Isaiah 64:4,  1 Cor 2:9

(Sorry it has taken me so long to post! It been a challenging year.  I'll try to do better.  Thanks for reading :)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Liar, Liar. Pants on Fire.

There are many common statements that people throw out as true scripture. I am here to say, “Liar, liar, pants on fire!" Okay, no, that is not what I really would ever say to anyone. My real statement would be, "NO! That’s not true. That is NOT what you were supposed to learn. You've been told a myth and have come to take it as biblical truth.” Now, don't feel bad, even some biblical Christians believe these statements:

Biblical myth #1: “God helps those who help themselves.” You’ve heard that one a few times, huh? NOT in the bible... not at all; this is a complete myth. This phrase was actually spoken by Benjamin Franklin - whom wasn’t even Christian. Can you imagine if God only helped those who helped themselves?

TRUTH: God helps those doing whatever they can to destroy themselves and those who are helping themselves and those who are not sure. He’s God. He does that.

Biblical myth #2: “The Lord will never give you more than you can handle.” I really wish this was true; however, its not. There are so many things in this world we can not handle! My friends’ 5 year old little girl had to go the the hospital to have her tonsils taken out. After the surgery the nurses took the mom into the recovery room to see her child. The moment she saw her little girl attached to all the tubes and lying in the hospital bed, she passed out (subsequently hitting her head on a table and ending up in the bed next to her daughter). This poor mother could not bare to see her child this way! There are many things in this world that are unbearable. Just because we live through them, do not make them something we felt like we were handling well.

People commit suicide; life was unbearable.

The actual verse is:

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. -1 Corinthians 10:13 (NIV)

TRUTH: Its really about temptation and how God always gives us a better choice when facing temptations.

Biblical myth #3: “Gods says don’t let people tread on you.” He does? No, he doesn’t. In fact he says just the opposite:

You have heard that it was said, 'An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.' But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.

-Matthew 5:38-42, NIV

Some people like to use the verse in Matthew 7 - "Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.”

TRUTH: Mean people suck and there are always mean people; you don’t have to give them your best treasures, but you do have to treat them with love and kindness, even as they punch you in the face, steal from you and make you go the extra mile (a.k.a. tread on you).

Myth 4: “The one with the most toys wins.” Okay, you did not really think that was in the bible right? It’s just a bumper sticker! I promise.

TRUTH: You can't take it with you, and you won’t miss it (unless you end up in the fiery pit - then you'll be missing a lot. Choices. Choices.).

Do you have any verses you’ve heard that you know are not true, or want to know if they are true? I'd love to hear them!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Got Questions

Occasionally speakers and bible study leaders will throw out the question, “If you had one question for God, what would it be?” ONE question? I could never have ONE question for the creator. I have SOOOO many!! So many! Here are a few of my top questions. Also, I have added some answers that I think God MIGHT answer, based on what I know of His personality... these are NOT from God, they are from ME.

How much longer? (Of course this only be a question I would ask while not enjoying the afterlife. In fact, I ask it a lot in prayer. So, God, how much longer do we have to THIS; this whole earthly existence thing gets old.)
God might reply: When my work has been completed.

Why do you call me to pray for people, even wake me from a slumbering sleep to pray for friends and people I’ve never met? Why would you need me to pray when you already know what they need?
God might reply: Your faith in me is renewed every time you are obedient to me. I use you, not because I need to use you, but because I want to use you. Isn’t it better for people to find strength/love/healing through the obedience of prayer rather then me just gifting it? What about when you see that person later full of faith/love/healed? Doesn’t that renew something new in you? Does it matter if you never know the person? Don’t you know that if I call you and ask you to pray, and you do, then my work has been completed in them?

I saw a man the other day with a really hairy back and shoulders and very little on his head. You think this is funny, don’t you?
God might answer: Some men need humbling.

This reminds me of a Sanctus Real song, “These things take time.” Really good song! “Why did you give me eyes, when my faith is how I see?” For lack of a better video:

SOOOO, what are your questions? What would you ask God?

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

California is Amazing

California is amazing.

Congratulations to Roxy on her High School graduation! I was so happy to be able to share in the celebration of the end of one season and the beginning of another.

My trip ended up being very... ambivalent. I loved seeing so many that I love and hugging as many as would let me. Beautiful place, amazing weather. The BEST coffee, better than I even remembered. Shopping was great! Broadway Plaza and Jamba Juice... YES! However, on Sunday I found myself feeling lost, broken, confused and overwhelmed. It took some time for me to figure out what was going on, here we go:

  1. I’ve been going through a LOT of little things in Florida that aren’t important, but are all important. The little annoying, we're part of the world, life things. I’m the best at blowing these things off, but after a while the injustice really was waring against me. I had to ask that all the bad news phone calls stop until I got home...there was nothing I could do from 3000 miles but feel pressure.
  2. Some of my best friends are going through the hardest trials. I have the gift of feeling what others are feeling, even if unspoken. Even if I don’t know you, I might know if you’re lying, hurt, happy, are sick, have a hurt knee, or have recently hurt yourself. I often do not know what to do with this information, but pray; in prayer God will reveal even more truths that I don’t know what to do with. I pray for you. Often.
    It goes with the gift of healing, one I am so thankful for, and as hard as all this feeling is some of the time, I am thankful God uses me. As happy as I was to see my friends, but their overwhelming emotional pain, hidden behind smiles, left me... ambivalent.
  3. I don’t feel like an effective Christian in Florida. I’m not doing the work he’s called me to do... I’ve tried to get connected. I’m not. Its confusing. Someone asked me if I can see why God moved us. My answer was, “No, not yet, not at all. I’m completely ineffective there.” He was shocked by my answer. I was a little shocked too but I don’t lie. I was making so much grounds in my teen mission work (where God has called me) and now I can’t even get connected to do anything. I know God will reveal where I need to be soon. I’m just always afraid I missed it.
  4. Someone asked me how things where in Florida. The word that came to mind was “tenuous.” No, I did not blurt that out loud. I think I said, “It’s a work-in-progress.” and smiled a 90% smile to ease their mind.
  5. I don’t lie. I know I’ve said that twice. However, it would have been easier on this trip to lie to everyone and lie about how awesome things are(n’t). The truth did make some people a little uncomfortable. I’m sorry. I just think the truth is always the best. So with that, the truth is... Its not all bad!! God is my best friend; therefore I am always in a win-win situation!

So, the second one above was the hardest for me. Sunday night I prayed that God separate MY feelings from the feelings of my friends and I felt much better, more like my centered self. Happier.

California is amazing, but man, what a roller coaster.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


Santus Real asked fans to record their story of redemption (based on their song, The Redeemer) on YouTube and post it to their site. I have a story that I've only shared with a few women and my husband. It's really hard to tell such a personal story in two minutes and on such a public level. To be truthful, I posted it to their site and then had a moment of panic... "What did I just do? It's not that good. Its too personal..." then, I reaffirmed myself and promised myself to blog the video here as a reassurance that, now, I can not go back! All in! *gulp*

Unfortunately, it's not one of those stories where I was on the edge of death and God pulled me off a train track two second before my left arm was to be severed by an on-coming train... however, it's my story... so here it is: